you never see me, and you don't know my face

oh hey.
so things are looking so much better. i've finally started sleeping again without the help of pills, so hopefully that will make my nasty illness go away. running is going well, we are headed to seattle next weekend and i am super stoked to pound some people into the ground. and i am also excited to be in the city that grey's anatomy takes place in. :)

this week has been great and i am just trying to find happiness in the littlest things. like movie night with the girls, playing pranks on our trainer, and drinking inordinate amounts of diet coke (no calories!!). i honestly have not been paying any attention to school lately and it will catch up with me soon. but for now i am having fun. and i think i need that right now. my room is a complete mess. but that's okay, i have no reason to clean it anymore, no one sees it and i am rarely ever home. i like it that way.
i don't know what the point of this blog is, but i just wanted all of you to know that i am doing okay.
i think a lot of people are thinking that the reason i have been having such a rough time is because of the breakup. don't get me wrong, that was very hard and disapointing, but that was just a small piece of the things that have been going on. i was very sad to see it end, but it was honestly for the best.
i am so thankful for running. it has brought so much structure to my life. i think there would have been days that i would not have gotten out of bed if it had not been for my need to run. my teammate ali taylor has been one of the greatest people in my life this past month. she has pushed me in every workout, has sat and cried with me before practice, and after practice, talked me through many sleepless nights, she has supported and has been participating in my plan to get a 6-pack, she has introduced me to so many new friends.....she has just been there for me in every way possible. so many of my friends have and i am so very thankful to you all. I have been having such a blast with caroline, lexie, and ali. they have reintroduced me to living and having fun again.

i have been listening to very different music, elyse can tell you. she has to put up with it. i have been drinking so much diet coke, i think it's because the people i hang out with every night have one in their hands at all times, so i have developed the same habit. there is also someone that has recently come into my life that just makes me smile so much. just seeing this person makes my day so much better. i am giving up on ice cream. okay, not entirely, but my 6-pack plan requires a significant decrease in ice cream consumption. this makes me sad. :(
haha.
okay i know this blog was super random and all over the place, but that's just how i am!