Wednesday, September 3, 2008

i have dreams of orca whales and owls but i wake up in frear

no matter how hard i try i can't seem to drown out the sound of cars driving past like they have somewhere important to go. all my homework is done for once, it is eleven and i should be sound asleep right now. but i'm not, cause i haven't received that phone call. i am pretty pathetic. it's true. but these little things i look forward to everyday keep me going. i know. pathetic.


i look forward to getting dressed everyday. i have never been an i-wear-sweats-24/7-cause-i'm-cool-like-that kind of athlete. i like getting dressed to impress. i live for discussing quitting school and backpacking through europe with no money over aggie ice cream with my best roommate. talking about how school is not hard enough, and how we prefer boys with facial hair. wanting to read the great american novels, not because we are required to like in high school, but because we are more sophisticated now. i live for plans of a classy cocktail party complete with gloves and big hats and a summer road trip to canada where the drinking age is 18. i live for striking up conversations with strangers because they are wearing chacos. i live for e-friends that i know will make great real life friends if we ever find the time to hang out! i live for hearing my mom worry about what i am eating on the rare occasions that we talk on the phone. i live for being able to call my dad, crying in the engineering building's bathroom, because i saw an animal get tortured in a movie in Living with Wildlife. i live for all the wonderful people in my life that have made me who i am.

2 comments:

Melissa said...

a canadian road trip would be fun for you.
i personally love them.

Elysie said...

i love you. and kitties