i don't want to be the pearl

don't get me wrong. i am in a happy place.

i know the decision was right.

just sometimes i sit and wonder
what it is i ever meant to you
i have been left to conclusions,
i never meant anything at all.

i was just a hand to hold?
someone who cared?
i laughed at your jokes?
was this all just a game?

i just can't comprehend
how you can stop.
stop caring after everything?

i don't need you to love me
i don't need you to be mine.
i would just like the knowledge
that it wasn't all fake,
that maybe you still care how i am doing,
that you are still my friend.